Chicharrones aka Pork Rinds

Oh how I hate and love thee. I don't know when this love started but I believe that it may have originated in child hood. My father also has an affinity for thee therefore I believe this condition is genetic.

I remember the countless times I would sneak over to Walgreens on break and buy a bag of your delicious Hot BBQ flavor. Even through my endless morning sickness with Kellen, my body still tolerated your goodness.

Today I found myself almost demolishing an entire bag of you today.

Please let me be. Please take your bad cravings for thee out of my blood stream. I am tired of feeling guilty and like I belong in a trailer after indulging myself...

Purpose

This morning while I was making myself some eggs, not really important to the story, I started wondering about things. Usually this happens in the bathroom, probably because it is the most quiet place to think. Anyway, back to the story.

I started thinking about what is the purpose of my life. I know the obvious things are to above all, serve my Heavenly Father, and to be a great wife and mother. Those are givens that I understand and I embrace. I was just wondering if I was meant for something more.

God knows the plans he has laid out for us and it isn't necessarily for us to know these but sometimes I wonder if I am somehow a Butterfly Effect. I don't think that my sneeze is going to be responsible for a typhoon in Asia or anything like that but maybe what I teach my children will be passed down to future generations of men and women of greatness. How do we know that George Washington's Great-Great-Great Grandmother was the unknown most important element of his success? :-)

Of course I want success and happiness for my children and it is something that I pray on but sometimes it is fun to think about what you maybe unknowingly doing/causing and how that will one day effect the Kingdom of God.

BTW: If you have never seen the movie Defending Your Life, I suggest you watch. It has Meryl Streep and Albert Brooks and they are in limbo between Heaven and Earth. They are basically on 'trial' to prove that their lives were worthy enough to move on or if there were still things that they needed to learn. There is a really funny scene where they were able to see who they were in past lives. The idea of something like that is entertaining to me. I would like to see who I would've been had I been born in a different time and place.

After much deliberation...

I have decided to post

that we are pregnant again!!!!

This is very scary for me because I will always have the fear that I will miscarry again. I just don't like keeping it a secret because babies are supposed to be celebrated.

I go to the doctor on 2/10. It is hard to say how far along I am but the 10th will be 8 weeks from my D&C. I know that they told us to hold off trying again but after doing alot of research, I found that there is no proven increase in miscarriage rate if you get pregnant right away as opposed to waiting.

We decided that while we weren't going to 'try' we weren't going to prevent things from happening.

We need everyone's prayers that this pregnancy goes smoothly and that God will bless us with a beautiful, healthy baby and K will get to be the great big brother I know he will be.

Teaching Backfire

Being a good mother, I try to expose K to new things and help him develop new skills.

K got crayons for Christmas. Although he still tries to eat them. He is enjoying them. Until he gets caught using them on the wrong places...

This is K's little finger pointing to his masterpiece for Mommy. Thank goodness Magic Erasers were created.

I heard whimperings from the bedroom...

and this is what I found!

He somehow got stuck sitting in his drum and this was the damage. Luckily it was just a couple red marks.

Like Father, Like Son

Where have I been?

There is a pretty good explanation for my extended absence at the end of 2009.


At the beginning of November, D and I found out that we were going to be expecting a new little baby to bless our family. We were both soo excited but wanted to keep it quiet until we had gone to our doctor’s appt.

I went into the first appt and it was really nothing more than some paperwork and taking ‘samples.’ This was unlike what happened with Kellen’s first appt. but that is the army for you. This was on a Wednesday.

On the following Monday morning, I woke up with some very light spotting. I immediately called the doctor and went in. In my gut, I knew that it probably wasn’t going to be good but I stayed hopeful. After doing labs and an ultrasound, it was determined that I had suffered what was called Embryonic Demise.

It turned out that the spotting I was suffering was actually a fluke because my body had had a missed miscarriage. My body was so intent on being pregnant that it had held onto the baby even though it had stopped developing around Week 4 and I was supposed to be 9 weeks by now.

I had a suction D&C on Wednesday December 16, 2009. That was the end of my pregnancy. I was sent home with pain medication and told to wait to try to get pregnant again for 3-6 months. It was hard to deal with. Having K around helped a lot because his smiles, laughter and happiness are contagious.

It was unfortunate that I actually lost a friend through this whole ordeal. She was ever so kind as to tell me, 2 hours after finding out about my miscarriage that she was pregnant. Although I was happy that she had been blessed with another child, her timing was mean and stupid. The demise of the friendship occurred because I told her that while I was happy for her, I wasn’t ready to celebrate with her and listen to her brag about it on Facebook. She then ‘de-friended’ me on Facebook and hasn’t contacted me since. Oh well! I don’t need those types of people in my life.


So that is how I spent the end of 2009. Even though it was terribly hard, overall it was a good year. We moved, I got the opportunity to stay home with K from now on, we decided that we are ready to share our love and family with the next child God blesses us with, we grew stronger as a family and we grew more in the Lord’s love.